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Date: 2025-05-25 10:05 pm (UTC)[It's an amused sort of sound he makes at the observation.]
Hunter would probably be the closest in appearance to your standard clones, if you can imagine his hair cut shorter and no facial tattoo. Echo would have been a better example, given that he is actually a Reg, but he's experienced and survived things that most troopers don't, and what's left of his body is testament to that.
[It's almost imperceptible, the sigh in response to Mikey's questions.]
Yes.
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Date: 2025-05-25 10:09 pm (UTC)Numbers. Like they give robots in movies and stuff. But you're human.
[He looks at the picture again.]
You must miss them.
[His voice is quiet and he closes the picture before he can think much more on it.]
Do you miss being human? Or do you like being a cool fire bird better?
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Date: 2025-05-25 10:30 pm (UTC)[His own voice quiets a little.]
I do. It has been strange, being apart from my squad for so many cycles. Prior to the Empire, we've always been together. And then things changed, the war ended, and Crosshair chose to serve the Empire. We did not. That was the first time any of us have been separated from the squad.
...I suppose it is impossible not to miss what and who you were. It took some getting used to, being five times my original size and a completely different species. I do not deny that this form has its advantages, but it does seem to also come with its own burdens and responsibilities. I never asked to become this, but it is a duty I have been called to undertake, so I will see it through as I can, whatever it may be.
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Date: 2025-05-25 10:44 pm (UTC)That's gross, Dude. You're clearly a person. You have thoughts and stuff and you matter, clone or not.
[He can't say he really follows all the bits about Separatists and the Empire and the Republic, sounds like a lot of war stuff that goes over his head, but none of it sounds good. Even if Draxum created him and his brothers to start an army to fight against the humans, he never actually was a part of anything like that and ended up fighting Draxum in the end. Until he turned good of course.]
I don't think I would want to go back to being a turtle. I mean. I was a baby so I don't actually remember it, but like, I don't think I would remember any of this, like my family and friends and stuff either if I turned back. I wouldn't be as smart.
We had to hide because there were a lot of people that wouldn't understand us and our dad was scared something bad might happen, but I like being me, you know?
You're probably still you, even if you look different. Duty or whatever, you would probably still be doing the same things, even if you were still human, right?
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Date: 2025-05-26 12:00 am (UTC)[Throw into that suddenly having to look out for a new sister and well...
Yes. It's been complicated, but not impossible.]
I should think that you are your own self because of what has happened to you. So yes, what you say is quite true. Many creatures do not otherwise possess the same amount of sapience as people.
It is unfortunate to hear that you and your family are misunderstood. I suppose in that regard I can relate. But I don't think that we have anyone that we need to convince of things so long as we have those who are important to us. Their opinion is the only one that should matter, just as much as your own.
[It might have been a laugh then, or as much of one as Tech ever makes.]
You are right. My activities have not much changed. I suppose I would not fly nor cast fire upon our enemies, but such are but minor details.
...perhaps your own changes, when they are triggered, can be something you can learn to control to your advantage, until it can be properly dealt with?
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Date: 2025-05-26 02:25 am (UTC)[Wonder if they'll run across any clones here, even if they're in a different universe. Mikey did know another version of himself for a while and that was fun. He doesn't think it's the same for Tech though.]
Yeah, we had April, mostly and then others over time, and we didn't really need more than that.
[They always had each other, after all.]
Hey, flying and casting fire are things that cool guys do, so maybe you're just way more rad now.
I'm not sure it's something I can control. I've tried. I mean, like, not on purpose, but when it's triggered, I fight it and sometimes I can push it off but sometimes it's like I'm trapped in my own body and I don't have control. Sometimes it's fuzzy when things happen and sometimes it's just a total blank that I only realize what's happened afterwards. It might be cool if I can control it but I don't know if it's worth the risk of hurting my brothers again.
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Date: 2025-05-26 03:06 am (UTC)So then you are suggesting in my previous, natural state, as it were, I would not be "cool" or "rad."
...I understand.
The clones all received an implant during the early stages of our growth. It was called an Inhibitor Chip, and we were informed only after one of our own managed to discover its existence, that it was meant to suppress any excessively violent tendencies as might have transferred over from our original.
However its true purpose was more insidious. At the end of the war, a single order was given over our communication lines, and that was all it took for most of the Regs to suddenly turn against their generals and commanders- the Jedi. And execute them as criminals.
[He pauses for a moment. If this was too heavy a topic for a kid to be informed of, he hasn't considered such.]
My squad was mostly unaffected, likely due to the additional experimentation that classifies us as 'defective', in that we are different from the average clones. Crosshair, as I mentioned, sided with the Empire, and his behavior may have been initially influenced by that chip to make him turn against us.
...Wrecker also started to feel its effects, although we were not full aware at the time. It was when we were advised to get the chips removed that it activated. He could not control himself, and because of the chip, instantly deemed us traitors to the Empire and nearly killed us all.
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Date: 2025-05-26 07:16 pm (UTC)[Okay, um. That was a lot dude.]
....That sucks. What...what happened, to Wrecker. And Crosshair?
[It's a little too familiar to what happened with Raph, but he knows it's not the same. They were able to at least get Raph out of that. Was his vampire stuff the same?]
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Date: 2025-05-26 10:28 pm (UTC)We were able to remove his chip, as well as all of ours, and no further problems have arisen in that regard, thankfully. And there are other clones who have started to question the Empire's motives and do not blindly follow their orders.
...Crosshair...
[He sighs.]
He had his own chip removed while in service to the Empire. His continued service to them is of his own choosing.
...he has always been stubborn on such matters, and while I do not agree with his decision, I understand his reasoning. He is, after all, a soldier, just as all of us are. Fighting and warfare are all that we've known.
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Date: 2025-05-31 08:12 pm (UTC)[Man, that really sucked. Maybe it was a sign to his maturity that Mikey didn't let those exact words escape his mouth this time.]
But it's different now. Here. You can be something different. You are something different. And I don't just mean the bird thing. You don't have to be a soldier. Sure, we still fight, because you can't let people get hurt, but like, that army isn't here, that war isn't here.
[Something about the way he was talking said this wasn't only about tech.]
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Date: 2025-05-31 10:42 pm (UTC)Of course, I cannot deny the skills I have honed and what I have literally been made for. I will make use of such as needed.
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Date: 2025-06-01 05:42 am (UTC)If I could have Raph back, I would.
[There is no denying the sadness in his voice.]
but really I just want to take my brothers and go home. Things were easier there. For us. Even with... this whole situation. Yeah we had the Kraang, and Shredder and Draxum I guess. But.... we were all together and when we won it really felt like we actually won. And the little guys every week were more fun than anything. But now... I don't even know what's right any more.
We keep fighting, but it doesn't feel like we're helping anything and every time we come back from another mission, my brothers just seem to be getting worse and I--
[He cuts himself off. He's getting off topic here.]
HOw do you deal with it all. It never stops.
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Date: 2025-06-01 06:03 am (UTC)In a way, I suppose that's how we felt before the war ended, perhaps ironically enough. But that's because we knew what we could do, and what we were fighting for. That all became upended, and we had to reorient ourselves, decide what was important to us.
[He lets out a quiet breath.]
This universe has so many of its own complications, and it's unfortunate we've been drawn into it. In many ways, we are not given an option to not do anything, but I suspect that it is also difficult for you and your brothers to not do anything in turn. Perhaps it is because that is how you've come to accept things. Or perhaps it is because you think that you might have some unspoken obligation to do so.
...choose your fights when you can. Do not lose sight of what is most important to you. My squad may have been struggling to figure out how to live apart from being soldiers of an army, but we have not stopped looking out for each other, and in the end, the safety of my brothers and sister outweigh trying to succeed in whatever undertakings we may have.
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Date: 2025-06-04 10:46 pm (UTC)[It's about the answer Mikey expected. He just wishes... he was kind of hoping to be told something different, though he couldn't say what. He couldn't say he would be happy with a different answer either.]
I don't even have all my brothers... I try to keep Donnie and Leo safe, but I have no idea where Raph is, if he made it back home. If he's safe.
[It's the first time he's said it out loud so bluntly and he nearly chokes on the words.]
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Date: 2025-06-04 11:51 pm (UTC)Your brother is not the first who has vanished from the ship. I can't say that he might be the last either. But there have also been those who have come back, and from those few instances it's at least been verified that they'd returned to where they had come from, and vaguely recalled their time here upon re-arrival.
When there are so many unknowns, it is best to remember what you do know. Do you believe in your brother's ability?
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Date: 2025-06-08 02:55 am (UTC)[That didn't really start out as comforting as Tech might have thought, or hoped. But Mikey supposed it was a bit of a better note by the end.]
Well yeah. I believe in all my brothers! But, well.... Raph has never done well being alone.
[It wasn't a guarantee, but he had to believe that Raph at least made it home, if what Tech said was true.]
I know he's probably worrying about us as much, if not more, than we're worrying about him.
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Date: 2025-06-08 05:10 am (UTC)He should not be alone. To my understanding, people still come from different points of time even if they are from the same world or universe. Is this not so? I do not know the circumstances of whether you and your brothers come from the same convenient timeframe or not, but you would know whether or not your brother was missing otherwise, wouldn't you?
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Date: 2025-06-08 06:47 pm (UTC)[It takes a moment for Mikey to parse that one out.]
I... guess???
I don't really get all the timeline stuff. But I know it kind of sucks. I'm supposed to be the baby brother but Donnie and I are almost the same age when he's supposed to be twins with Leo and Leo's older and... nothing about it is right.
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Date: 2025-06-08 10:15 pm (UTC)That does however bring up other points that I do not have answers for. The time that we have spent here, for one- does it just get reset somehow, when a person returns? Do they retain that age and experience difference? If I were to go back as I am, would I still be a different species?
...I suppose these are not much help to reassure you of anything. But for all that has happened and that we do not know with the space bridge's operation, I do not think that we were brought by any malicious means, nor do I think we depart in such ways.
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Date: 2025-06-10 11:45 pm (UTC)[Well, Mikey supposed that was somewhat comforting, by the end. Even if he's just left with a reopened wound he had been so carefully holding close since Raph disappeared. But maybe... if he takes Tech's words and really thinks about them... they do kind of help.]
Hey, Tech. Thanks. I'll try to remember all that. It's nice to think that maybe he's just back home like nothing ever happened. Makes it... easier.
I wish I could help my other brothers as easily, but they're... their brains don't work the same as mine. Which is fine. I love that we're all unique. But it makes it hard. On all of us.
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Date: 2025-06-11 12:28 am (UTC)It's difficult, yes. I know that I do not process things the same way that most do, so I apologize if I come off as blunt at times. But perhaps your brothers will find their own way of coming to terms with everything that has happened. I do not think any of the things we go through are so simply accepted. You are all brave and strong for getting through them as you have, and continuing on. Do not forget that.
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Date: 2025-06-14 03:04 am (UTC)Don't worry about it. You kind of remind me of my brother so it was actually... weirdly comforting.
But yeah. Thanks Tech. I think I'm gonna go get some hugs. Talk to you later?
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Date: 2025-06-14 03:32 am (UTC)